It hurts

I tried really hard para lang mabalik yung dati
But every time I try, it just gets worse
Matagal na pero I still like her and it really hurts
This song is for me and para sa lahat na gaya ko na naga-effort parin para sa isang tao pero useless parin
Biglaan by: 6cyclemind

Nandito nakaukit pa rin sa puso ko, 
Ng sabihin mong "wag na lang".
Nandito nakatatak pa rin sa isip ko, 
Kung paano mo tinalikuran ang lahat.
Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss

Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala, 
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan, 
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.

Hindi ba natin kayang magkunwari, 
At sabihin "sige na lang"
Hindi ba natin kayang dayain, 
Ang mga yakap sa tuwing lumalamig
Kay bilis, ba't umalis, nakakamiss... 

Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala, 
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan, 
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.

Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan, 
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.
Di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala, 
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.

Na bigla lang!... 
Na bigla lang!...

Credits to: Lyricsmode.com

Why is it the harder I try, the harder it gets?

It still hurts. Love really hurts. I never thought that the first girl that I ever get serious about would break my heart just like that. She may have forgotten it, but it is still as clear as day, the words that came out of her mouth. She gave up on me, she gave up on us. It all began during my second year in high school, I was captured by her smile and I became addicted to it. I lived everyday just to see that smile. During my third year in high school, I made my move and began talking to her, I began talking to her everyday that I would spend my allowance just to load my cellphone. One day, she asked me who my crush is then I asked her what would she do if I said she is my crush, then he just smiled and then I said I like her she also said the same thing to me and our relationship got deeper and deeper until I almost fell inlove with her. During the valentines, I went to manila for a research contest, she said valentines is lonely without me. So on my way home, I bought some teddy bear, flowers and chocolates. She was very happy and I also felt that time saying how I feel, that I really loved her but I didn't have the courage to do so. Days passed, I thought to give her a necklace and on the month of march I gave it to her and she accepted it. At that time, I really want to say that I loved her but I still cannot gather my courage to say it. Days passed by, it was summer and she invited me out to watch some movies. I was really happy that I cant sleep at night. The day finally came and we watched the movie, we held hands the whole movie and we ate and ate and strolled around the mall but I still cannot state my feelings. Days passed by and summer days are coming to an end then one day, she stopped texting me and I asked the reason whats the problem then she explained it all to me that she wants to be just us to be normal anymore, she said that it's against her religion and his fellow churchmates. She wants to focus on her studies, well what can I do, I tries chasing again back to her but she kept on making me fall back. I didn't knew it was this hard, this was the first time I ever cried on a girl, and I didn't even said that I loved her, I am such a fool. Well, that's just how life is, people just come and go but it's hard to find someone who will stay with you until the end of time. Well, I still love her and I'll keep chasing her and that's one of my good points :) so this is Zy.ril Jay Clavel signing out saying dont rush yourselves getting into love and be just patient. I realized after all that it was me that was my problem, I got too carried away and rushed myself. Anyway, I hope you learnt something from my own sad love story :-)